On the whole things went pretty well. Did much of what you all suggested. Watched the new Charlie and the chocalate factory and The Santa Clause. Boys enjoyed them both and so did I. At any other point of the year it would have been much more fun for me. I am tired and stressed as usual by the end of the semester but probably even more so this year. I know my frustration tolerance is low right now and I am not as patient with the boys as I want to be. This of course frustrates me more. I have tried taking a timeout from whatever interaction is getting to me but they just follow me and keep pushing my buttons. The intellectual part of me knows what is going on and how to fix it but the tired and over-stressed rest of me can't handle it. Grades are due next Thursday and the TPR hearing is next Friday. I am trying not to think about the hearing too much but of course that's impossible. I really don't know what to expect and that is of course stressful. If they don't grant the TPR I don't see how I can keep the boys. They have been challenging enough but I can't even imagine the H### that will break loose if I have tell them they are going back to bmom. At times of course it is an attractive thought...just me and the dogs again. Then they tell me that they love me and I feel guilty for thinking those thoughts.